I'm approaching my 1 year anniversary with American Airlines. I have seen all 4 seasons and all 12 months. I wouldn't say I am content, but I enjoy my position. The impending layoffs have caused me to search the market, but now is not the time to disrupt my work life. I'm still searching for some level of consistency, and I'm finally accepting that the lack of consistency is ny new consistency - watch my back, stay one step ahead of the boss, and document everything.

I make up for the incosistency with a stable personal life. I have a routine that's working for me with my trainer and the gym (which relieves stress!), I see my family regularly, I have a great apartment and wonderful friends, but this life is slipping lately as well. I've entered that stage where it becomes necessary to domesticate or live up my 20's. Naturally, my long term relationship has leaned me towards domestication. However, I worry it is not leaning both us and causing a disconnect.

I'm not a patient person. I hate the transitions. I wish I knew the outcomes. I assume people around me always had life as easy as they do now. I want to catapult myself out of this holding pattern and get on with it. I guess I can only catapult as fast as my other half.